Days when I hate DH's job

[Kimberly]

OK, OK I admit, on the heels of my pep talk, I need to vent!!

Today is one of those days when I HATE his career choice, and being a pikt's wife. I am sick-- running a temp and feeling lousy, my DD started vomiting this am and is sick and unable to keep much more than Liquilite down, and my DH is going on a trip tomorrow am.

I work part time, but am hourly, and basically "bring home the bacon" so my DH can "follow is dream" and do whatever the hell he wants. And I don't have sick pay, or days off, and I can't be a stay at home mom or we can't eat or pay for our home. So when DD or/and myself are sick staying home is really a tough option.

I don't like to be indebted to my mother in law and have her take care of the baby while I work. If we lived in another state we would be high and dry so I don't like to depend on her, and frankly I don't care for the way she takes care of my daughter (she doesn't have a brain and can't make educated decisions in instances that call for them...) OOPs, did I REALLY say that?

So, I am staying home tomorrow, making our financial situation worse, and my DH is leaving for a trip until Monday. Our house looks like a bomb exploded it is so messy, and I feel like I am chronically behind. I haven't even unapacked from Christmas, much less New Year's trip ( I can't believe I admitted that). But when I get home from work, it is filled with taking care of Mack, feeding her and getting her ready for bed, doing her laundry, cooking dinner, cleaning up dinner, pumping and storing milk, doing paperwork from work, PUMPING AGAIN, packing bags for the next day, and then going to bed and starting ALL over again.

Some days I just do really wish for a more NORMAL family. I guess there are times when I just FEEL better when he is here, even if he isn't DOING anything. It is scary and frustrating to be sick yourself, and have a sick child and not to really know what to do for her and be left alone at home to "hold the fort down" in every aspect. It feels unfair. All I know is I hope he is faving fun and ENJOYS his job-cause it sure makes our lives difficult at times. OK, OK I'm done and all of you can tell me . Just had to vent.

[Bigsweetie]

Oh Kimberly, I know how hard it is. Especially with a small child. About a month ago I got a migraine headache and was REALLY sick from it and DH was gone on a trip. I would throw up, then Emily would wake up and fuss. I'd have to go in there, soothe her, then go back and lay down. It sucked!!

And you're right, it IS unfair. I'm sure your DH really appreciates everything that you do by yourself. Just keep telling yourself what a strong woman you must be to handle all of this on your own. You're setting a really good example for Mackenzie showing her a strong, independant woman. There's alot of women out there who couldn't handle the lifestyle that we live. We all have bad days. There have been many times I wished Eric did something else.

My only advice is - don't worry about the house, send DH to the store tonight before he leaves and have him get really quick meals for you to eat (so you don't have to cook) and just take care of Mac, take naps with her, do the bare minimum for her and try to rest. The more you try to accomplish while you're sick, the longer you'll be sick!

I hope your DH will be home soon.