I miss a public US.

[katbuad]

Hubby and I have been married for more than 6 years. He just recently got a job and starting flying with a regional. It feels like he is gone all the time. I have my moments, but mostly I am ok with the setup.

But sometimes it hits me really hard. I was at church this past Sunday and noticed a couple a few pews ahead of me. He had his arm around her. They were married and had the apperance of two people who where very comfortable with each other. I couldn't take my eyes off of them. I just kept thinking that Hubby and I probably looked like that together in church. I was thinking about all the times we had set together, just like that, and that I taken it all for granted.

I also miss that we don't do a lot of things with other people. We used to hang out some with my couple friends or his brother and girlfriend. But now the time we have together seems so short, that I don't want to share him. Yet I still miss being out with him with others. (His days off are always durning the middle of the week and everyone we know works, so getting together is not very convient either.)

I think Hubby is doing very well on his own. I feel like I am doing very well on my own. I think that we are a great private us. But I don't think that we are building very good public us.