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[bartswife]

Okay... I am relieved to have this site because I did something out of pure jealousy. I have been having a lot of dreams that my DH is cheating on me. I tell him about these dreams and he tells me I am crazy and that he would never cheat on me. My DH was on a trip and left his computer here that he usually takes with him. I got on his company email and found an email from a girl in that lives in one of the over night cities he stays in. The email talked about needing each others numbers so they could get together when he was in town. I found that girls number and called her without even talking to my DH. The lady, who was a ramper at the airport, ensured me that they are just friends and that she used to work at DIA as one of the Skywest HR workers. She even told me about a time that I had met her. She ensured me that my DH was a good guy and talks about me constantly. She talked to me for a very long time and told me what he says about me. After talking to me I felt much better and scared that DH would find out I called her, I wasn't gong to say anything to him. She did call the next day and tell him what had happened. He was so mad at me for checking his email. Has anyone else ever done that?
I have a trust issue because of previous experiences. I feel like he keeps things from me that are usually very innocent but when I find out about these things I get very jealous. How do some of you keep from getting jealous and does you your DH tell you what happens on trips? I think that I would be better off knowing what and who he was with instead of him keeping things from me and me finding out about things myself.