I was pretty embarrassed to come here and tell you all that the conversation I'd intended did not take place the way in which I'd intended. I have been struggling with this issue since then, but tonight, I chose to send it in a very lengthy email to him.

I won't lie to you and tell you it was easy or that I am relieved. Nor that I have stopped loving him....that would be a lie.

However...I was due to spend time with him this week as he will be doing additional training and I just could not continue things as they were/are. But he is free now to be or do now as he chooses.

Sorry for the lack of details...but I am not in a very good way right now.

dg