[Roxswood]

Hi, I've only just found this site and am really hoping for some help dealing with things right now.

DH has just started with an airline after 2years training and then 6 months or so unemployed. I'm having major doubts (well actually have had them since he first mentioned wanting to train as a pilot) about whether I want to live this life. I'm 8 months pregnant with our second child and worrying he won't be around when I give birth, although thankfully the airline are being accomodating so far and we think he'll get a base fairly close to home while he does his line training so he will be home most nights.

I am feeling really left behind, like his life is expanding so rapidly and he's achieving so much, and having such exciting wonderful new experiences and I feel like my life is closing in around me. All I've done for 2.5 years is follow him around and haven't been able to stay in one place long enough to build up a support network or even have a life of my own and now I'm having another baby and won't be free to do much at all for a long time now if its anything like our first child. We're all living with my Mum at the moment until he finishes line training and gets his permanent base so I'll have some support while I have the baby and for the first few weeks but then we'll have to move somewhere else unknown again.

I never wanted to be married to a pilot, unfortunately we were already married when he told me he really wanted to do this and I couldn't possibly stop him from following his dream, I love him so much but I just don't know if I want to continue living my life following HIS dream.