 Taking a break
Ok, I know I am new around here, but I have to have somewhere to vent. Last night, my BF of a few months and I are "taking a break". He leaves tomorrow for training in Dallas and Paris, and he thinks that it would be a lot easier if he didn't have to worry about me for the next few weeks. I don't know what to think. I am crazy about him, but I know this is what he needs to do in order to pass his training. It just really sucks. It would be hard enough to date him while he is gone for three weeks, but luckily you ladies have given me great advice on how to last. Now, I don't know how I am going to be able to do it since I prolly won't even be able to talk to him most of the trip. Has this happened to anyone else?
I guess the big thing is that he said he wants to resume our relationship after he gets back. How am I supposed to feel about that? I mean, he just decides to take a break and I am supposed to be waiting? I don't get it.... maybe it's just that I am overly emotional right now because I know how hard it is going to be. I am just so upset because I made myself prepared for what it was going to be like, and it still wasn't good enough for him. I know he needs to be selfish and get this class done, and I support him in that, but it's almost like he just kinda forgot about me. He asked me how I got to be ok with all of this, and I told him about this and how much all you ladies have really put things into perspective for me, and he actually got mad about it. I don't know if it was just icing on the cake, but I don't see the big deal. Isn't the whole point that I *AM* ok with it all? And that I was prepared to let him do his thing and not be emotional towards him, so that he can get all this done and start his new job??
Sorry that I am rambling. My friends just don't understand what it is like, and I just figured some of you ladies might. Any tips on how to get through this?? |