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This is the reply I got from my pilot

That was the sweetest thing anyone has ever written to me.
Thank you for sharing it.

You should never feel vulnerable about your feelings.
They are the most important part of you.
We are not robots.

I am glad you feel comfortable around me.
And that you notice the little things (most people do not).
I guess my mother taught me well how to behave around girls.

You say that I have been good at keeping in touch with you, but I don't feel that I have been very good at that.
Today was case in point as I did not call you at all.
True, I was very busy all day, but I was also ashamed to call you.
I feel really bad about all of this.
I should not have tried to start a relationship when I was not settled.
You are a very sweet person and I would not want to hurt you.

Although I am very flattered by all that you wrote, I don't have the same feelings about us as you do.
I do enjoy your company and the few times we were together we very enjoyable.
And I too learned alot from you.
But I don't think we will have a future as a long distance relationship is not something that I am interested in trying to maintain.
When you came by the other night, I was going to tell you this, but I was too chicken.
I don't like to hurt other people, but sometimes they get hurt more when things are left unsaid.
I hope that is not the case now with you.

You are really the only friend I made during my short stay here in San Fran.
And I will always cherish that friendship.
You are really a very cool person, and I am glad to have gotten to know you.
I really hope that all the goals you have set for yourself come true.
I have no doubt that they will.

I am sorry not to have told you this in person, or told you this sooner.
I will be leaving for DC tomorrow evening.
When I get back on Sunday night, I will then just have Monday as my last full day in this apartment, which is a huge mess right now.
If you want, I can call you from the road, or when I get back, to at least say goodbye.

Hope you are well and your last cross country went well.