[jr_lenz]

oh ladies, you know how much I wanted this baby. but the morning sickness has hit and hit bad. if given the choice I don't get up off the couch. I feel like a horrible mom and wife right now. Even the dog is getting a little put out by me, and took himself for a swim yesterday. On thrus I had a hugh event for the hospital and to work from 5:30 am to 9:00 pm. Friday I couldn't move, I think I got way to hot, and I'm not keeping much down. I threw up 12 times on friday. I had to go to the store to pick up something besides 7up to throw up, and we I got home and out of the car the river smelled funny, boom I was on my knees throwing up in the front yard! At night I stick a suppository in the v-jay jay for hormones to help baby. and one in the bum for morning sickness. Poor DH has totally given up on getting sex ever again. I have gone in once for fluids, which made me feel better for a few hours. I am struggling to keep up at work, I haven't told many people there yet so I'm sure it looks like I am slacking. If I can I am going to try to go in tommorrow (sun) to do some catch up. Dh is gone for five days which is hard, b/c I can't even pump gas with out gagging by the pump. I have a hard time with the cat and dog food too. I don't want to seem like I am complaining, but this is so much harder than I remember. the good news is that the last time I was sick this bad was with DS, so although I feel like crap, it is a good sign. But I threw up until 5 months with him. I just really need to feel better. And if my mom tells me to eat some crackers in the morning one more time I am going to LOSE IT. I love this baby I really do, but I feel like crap, and I want someone to rub my hair and feel sorry for me...but he is away at a nice hotel room, watching cabel.