The only thing i hate about being alone is that it's just so darn quiet around the house. I can talk to doug everyday via chat, phone, video chat etc etc and it feels as though i haven't talked to him or anyone at all, any day of the week...
I wonder if this week will be any different?! he just left tonight for a redeye to JFK and already, i'm dreading the "quiet". normally, i don't dislike it being quiet.. sometimes (i guess just maybe those particular times of the month?
) i do...this is just one of those days where i really don't want to be alone in a quiet house for days on end. granted, it's only a week, that's really not too bad but it's just the circumstance of the whole thing, really.
I did what i needed to do today before doug left... i felt as though i hadn't gotten enough time with him this week, so i changed my schedule around and took the afternoon off (i'll go finish my week tomorrow morning). that helped some and it was definitely better than nothing...I do find that anytime "I" need something *more*, i know that i need to make it happen before doug leaves for work, so i try to do what i can to make that work to my advantage. I think i would have much rather enjoyed another full weekend with doug around and then him taking off on a monday for a week long trip but ya gotta work with what you have. Had i been able to (if i didn't have so much work), i probably would have tried to go to Rome with him this weekend. never been there but I'm still going to try and go to Romania next week, so i opted to stay home and get ahead at work so that i can take an extra day and make my flights work out so that i don't miss that Romania trip.
but eh, just ranting a bit before i go to bed...I find it's always good to get it out of your system before sleeping so that you can wake up to a new dawn in the morning. hopefully tomorrow morning will be better than this morning cuz i was all weird this morning (even had an allergy attack - dust probably)...but tomorrow's another day.. so off to bed i go!
thanks for hearing me gab...vent or whateva!
