Ahh drinks...did you have to rub it in
! I can't even have caffine. Well Amanda, hope you come with something good! LOL!
Actually things have gotten alot better, mainly because I have a plan. I enrolled in some courses for the fall, because I have had my plan to pursue my Nurse Pratitioner degree, and it felt good to sign up for the last 3 classes I need.
I have spoke with Db every day..he calls, but really brief because I am really trying to keep things positive, and not react on all the questions buzzing around about the future. I also put everythig in regards to relocating on his plate. For instance, I told him he would have to check with his company about insurance for me, since i cannot leave my job unless he insures me. That was a few days ago, and today he called saying he had a meeting with the office, and the lady told him he can't insure me unless we were married. Normally I would have took that opportunity to say "SEE TOLD YOU SO" but I didn't and just thanked him for checking. He said we would have to get married if I moved, yeah duh..I told him I don't know if i will move, and let's just leave this conversation for when he is done and we know what we are dealing with. He seemed shocked that I suggested I might ot move, and that i wanted to save the conversation for later. I can tell he has been thinking of things more, because each phone call includes details about our future, etc. So that feels better and more like he is thinking about the ALL of us.
He was very upset one day saying one of the chief pilots told him he may go to Santa Barbara, The Deep South of Alabama (OMG), or Huntsville Alabama, then told him don't get too comfortable cause they are gonna need him back on charter...He was soooo upset saying they need to understand his circumstances, and he has a family he needs to be there for..I actually told him "Honey I have been reading alot about families in the airline industry, and I don't think they are gonna give a sh*%!" He seemed confident he could sit down with them and get them to give him a run. Now I usually would have blown a gasket, because there were LOTS of guys that got off charter after a year or so because of their family, but I just told him be ready for anything, and we just have to make it work.
So I think I am responding differently, and maybe that gives him the clue that he better too, or he may lose me for good. I don't think that will happen....but I know one thing and you all are my witness I am NOT moving to the deep south of ALABAMA!! LOL No offense to anyone from there, I just don't think I can go from the Northern Cali bay area to that...I would rather go hang out with my cousin in ATL and he can commute..LOL which I already checked is an option! Baby steps!!