[JenniPage]

So, ladies...

I am sitting here, typing this out and crying, once again...
I know that you don't really know me or my story. All that you might know is that I have been with my BF for about 2-3 months. I know that is nothing compared to the length of time that many of you ladies have been going through this...

Well, I hadn't heard from the BF for a few days and then last night we had a nice long talk. He was sweet and lovie and things were wonderful. Before we hung up he promised me that he would call me the next night at 9 PM. He SWORE that he would and that he was off, so we would have all the time in the world...

So, here I sit... 9pm, 10pm, 11pm and now midnight with no word. I left him a voicemail and I sent him an email.

I just feel so stuoid.
I go for a few weeks and I think that I have finally hit my stride. I think that I have it all under control and I am dealing with this. Then something like this happens, and something like this ALWAYS happens.

So, now I am hurt because I get to sit here and think thayt I am not important enough for him to make 5 minutes for, and I get to feel stupid for letting him do this to me yet again...

And the thing is... I REALLY could do this... If I got even the least little something back in return. But, I can't do this on my own. I don't hear from him for a week and then he is back like he didn't miss a beat.

I feel like a jerk when I try to make demands of his time because I know he is stressed and busy... No matter what I feel like the bad guy...

Ladies, I am SO sorry for the rant... I just had to get this all out.

Thank you for listening...